The Break Up

This is not an easy thing for me to do but we need to talk about our relationship. This is why I am writing you this letter.

I accepted early on that I would have to share you with other people and sometimes it would be standing room only. I knew that you wanted to be treated first class but I could only afford second. We made it work back then but lately I feel that there is a distance between us.

At times when I think things seem to be going well you suddenly redirect your attention via another station. I try to understand where you are coming from and listen to where you are going but I am finding it harder and harder to relate to you. It’s like I don’t know who you are anymore. We’ve lost that connection we once had.

I know our relationship has changed over the years. I’ve changed where I want to go in life and you have changed your timetable. Sometimes the two are not compatible but I’ve always tried to make it work, I’ve always find other routes.

But then late last night you stood me up at Rotterdam central when I needed you the most. To make matters worse you wouldn’t communicate with me and tell me what was wrong. Later, when you finally did opened up a little you announced that you had issues between Den Haag HS and Schiedam but didn’t want to talk about it any further. I felt like you were shutting me out. I tried to ask how long you thought it would take you to work through your issues but you told me to check your website for further updates on the situation.

And so… I waited for you and I did not say anything else.

This morning you did your best to hide the events from last night and put on a happy face. I didn’t want to say anything but I could tell that whatever had happened the night before had affected you more deeply then you were willing to admit. When I couldn’t stay quite about it anymore I tried to ask you what was wrong you simply shut down again and dismissively suggested I take the bus.

I think it is time we both admit it. This is not working out. You obviously have a lot of your own issues to deal with. I don’t seem to be a priority to you anymore and that hurts. I think it’s just best if we end it and try to go our own separate ways.
But if you are ever ready, if you ever sort out all your issues… I’ll still be here, waiting for you, on spoor 8.

20 responses to “The Break Up”

  1. zed says:

    I think a lot of people have issues with Den Haag.

  2. Lily says:

    Thank you. I sometimes thought it was just me who is working out my issues with the amount of times a train has stood me up.

    My favourite – those times the train just stopped at a station and we were told with NO PRIOR WARNING WHATSOEVER to bugger off because the train wasn’t going any further. Not fun when you don’t know where you are, there is no other train back home and no bus. And the one person you know is stuck in a meeting. That happened on that train about 3 times this year.

  3. Invader Stu says:

    Well.. I’m not have much luck this morning either. There was a big train accident last night so there are no trains this morning. I’m sitting on a tram at the moment trying to find another way around.

  4. Invader Stu says:

    Zed – It seems to be a hot spot for train mishaps.

    Lily – Trust me. You are not alone. I’ve had that hapen to me so many times as well.

  5. Conortje says:

    It is very difficult to maintain a healthy relationship with NS – I’m surprised you two lasted this long :-)

  6. Invader Stu says:

    I guess I should have listened to everyone else when they told me NS was no good for me

  7. Tess says:

    You just wait and see how much fun it’s gonna be when autumn arrives and your -now- ex starts to nag about how leaves and autumn moods seem to cause her to have a break down every so often ;O)

  8. Paule says:

    Oh man tell me about it. I used to travel to work from Rotterdam to Voorschoten and worried every morning if I was going to get to school on time or there at all. Numerous times I was dumped at Delft due to yeah whatever.

  9. Jo says:

    This is so brilliantly clever that until I read the comments, I didn’t know if you were ending the blog or breaking up with your girlfriend! (So publicly? It seemed sort of out of character.) Guess this is a case where you really have to BE there to know what’s going on… trains, huh? Sounds like NYC.

  10. Wezz6400 says:

    Maybe you should learn how to treat her right. I’ve been with her for many years with very few complaints, she never abandons me unless ordered so by the fire department, or when she’s cut off from power by some mean and jealos guy, someone like, well, like you! ;-)

  11. Lily says:

    Invade Stu. THANK YOU!!! Yesterday I read your comment about the trains and I had to go somewhere by train. I decided to get a different train and leave an hour earlier when I saw your comment. I am so glad I did. The train I was intending to get was 40+ minutes delayed! You saved my day! :)

  12. Invader_Stu says:

    Tess – I’ll never understand trains and their strange mood swings.

    Paule – It’s always Delft or Den Haag HS. I’m not sure why. I think they are the train black hole of Holland.

    Jo – And it’s for that reason that I showed this post to my girlfriend before I posted it and said to her, “Don’t panic. This is not about us.” :p

    Wezz6400 – So you are the one she was two-timing me with :p

    Lily – Just doing my part :p Was it the Friday morning train? There was something going really wrong with the trains that morning.

  13. Lily says:

    Nah, it was a train in the early afternoon :)

  14. Tam says:

    Just now realized you’re back…apparently.
    That’s great, I’ve always enjoyed your posts. So, have a great weekend&I’ll be sure to be checking in on you every now and again!
    Oh, and welcome to Holland/Amsterdam

  15. Invader_Stuu says:

    Maybe it was still related to the train trouble I had but then again knowing the NS it could have been an unrelated mess up :p

  16. VallyP says:

    Brilliantly expressed our Stu! I’ve had this kind of break down myself, but it seems to have been me who suffered,not Blaak…what are you going to do now?

  17. Invader Stu says:

    Try to live my life one day at a time I guess… just one day at a time.

  18. Dragonlady says:

    Sounds like British Rail

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